Break my body

dear keppers
i love you so so much babes and i just want you to know that i feel stronger for you than i ever have. every second that i'm with you or that i talk to you my love grows for you. i want us to have more memories too, and everytime we're together we usally make more memories whether it's through funny pictures or fun things we do with ice and chocolate ect. hah. i'm probably rambling on right now but that;s okay, all that;s really important is that i love you with all my heart kirsten and i want us to be happy and i know we;re going to be happy and i'm sorry about that last couple days, but that always happens when we're apart for along time. i can't wait to hug you in an airport on monday.
love
max

i'm bored and sad, and lonely and old memories are coming back to me and sjkdfhl everything is just lame.

( pictures, everyone likes pictures. )




and i had to put this on here, because its hilarious. okay.
artsex68: if some girl tried to hit me with a whip id be like fuckin bitch, gimme that

Mein Mund verletzt und ich habe den ich von Krämpfen verpasse Max., und ich will Geschlecht schlecht. ich will Max., mit mir unter den Decken und wir reden und küsst und zuschaut Filmen und zu streicheln, ist nur zusammen. und ich will karlee, online zu kommen, ich verpasse sie viel. ich habe sie kleidt heute gekauft. AHH der ich bin ungefähr so stanzt meine Zähne aus.

fuck life.
i don't want to live.

you know you want my polka dot shoessss.<3

i want my haircut again. and this is what i want. tell me if it would look good.kthnx.

( theres just no-one that gets me like you do )

wow, today is a really really good day. max called me and he told me he's scared to go potty[numbaa 2] in germany. HAAHHA ew gross. but i thought it was hilarious. then my mom told me i could dye part of my hair dark purple. i'll show you a picture in a minute. then my brother is going to take me and karlee to get tatoos(sp?) i'm getting a black star on my left wrist.. like the part where you cut yourself haha. ANDDDDD i'm so getting my lip pierced. left side..lip ring. andddd. my mom is so out of town tonight. yeah that means i can blast the music and run around naked. and drink her alcohol. hahaaa. hmmm... any other good news... i'm going to gauge my ears.. not to some huge huge hole..but like a little one so only a pencil can fit in it. and thats all. well i'm going now.

( i'm craving for you )

omg this is the funniest conversation ever. and it was all between a boy and me.

( touch me baby )

yes my boyfriend has long hair. and yes he is on the right. this picture makes me miss him even more.

Me and Karlee have this plan. We're going to yell at max, and then he will get his act together. and then everything will be perfect between us again. and she is going to get mr. freeburg and they will be perfect.

anyways.
i woke up at 10 today and talked to max for an hour and a half. that was the most confusing happiest saddest conversation of my life. i miss him. a lot. then i went back to bed at 11:30. and woke up at 6:30. yeah so i pretty much slept the whole day. ohh well. i never go to bed till about 5 in the morning anyways.
yuck i hate looking outside and seeing this big perfect neighborhood, with all the nice big houses, and happy little kids. fajkld. ew.

i'm going now.
bye.
oh yeah.
nvm.

i'm sick of the interent, but what else is there to do in georgia but sit online.
i havent gotten more than 5 hours of sleep in the past month.
i'm overly tired and majorly stressed out.
i went back to my old habit.
i met a boy, he is greater than ice-cream with whip cream and chocolate and cherries. oh and sprinkles.
i cant breathe right, i think there is something wrong with my heart.
i feel fat, and yet i do nothing about it.
i dont want to move in with my cousin. ughh. i promise i'll never be home.
people annoy the fuck out of me.
i hate ugly people. so if you are ugly dont talk to me.
i always feel sick.
i hate my parents. they ruin my life, and try to change me. they want me to be the girl involved in tennis and piano and have really girlie sleepovers and only wear little polo shirts and khaki pants. well they can suck my dog's cock.
i miss my brother, i havent talked to him in forever or seen him. i need him right now.
and finally i will admit it to everyone. me and max are falling apart. ohh boy.
my mom stole all my dads money..so technically im poor at the moment. well my dad is and i live with him.
im way too ugly.
I WANT TO GO HOME. I HATE GEORGIA AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT.
ohh and my mom is trying to make me live here, saying i need to, to live a healthy lifestyle. SHE CAN SHUT THE FUCK UP. SHE IS THE ONE WHO HAS TO LIED TO ME AND THE REST OF THIS FAMILY MY WHOLE LIFE..HAVING HER STUPID FUCKING AFFAIRS.dsklafhklasdjf.
oh and to make things so much better. i found out my dad is dying. wow that makes me feel great. pshh.
oh and my wrists hurt. dont fucking ask why, you can figure it out on your own. and no. that doesnt make me less of a person.

I just got done watching The virgin suicides, that movie made me think about life. I really liked it. and now i'm about to watch Amelie. I hate this.. i'm sitting here all alone watching movies, no boyfriend to cuddle with me, to share the couch with me, hog the covers from. fdjklasdjkf. i'm going now. perhaps i'll make some popcorn.

oh i have a fan club. dan's idea.
so if you would like to join. comment. wait.
and then you will be a member.
wow. i feel so special &&&
I LOVE DAN.

okay i'll shutup about the old pics. yeah i know its getting annoying.
MAX CALLED ME TODAY. AGAAAIN. that so made my afternoon. i love him with all my mother fucking heart. asdklfj; and i miss him wayyy too much. tomorrow= one week.. of him being in germany. and now 2 more to go. [sighs and sad face] ohh well i need to get over it. i get my haircut tomorrow. im happy. no i will not tell you how im getting it cut, its a surprise. oh another thing that makes me happy, i got super tan today..well yeah. and sunburned on my face. i put [not telling you, then you will steal my secret of getting fast tan] on my skin and i sure baked. it only took me about 30 min too. its great.
OMG I LOVE KARLEE AND MOLLY...we are all going to be bestfriends. mmhhm. and have sleepovers, and be camera whores. and all that shitt. yep. oh yeah and tomorrow i have plans.. thank god. me and my lovely 7th grade husband are hanging out, and then me and miss patty jones are having a sleepover. howw exciiiting. im going now. because its time to go back to comment wars with kar!ee

i like sad songs they make me think.

i used to be so pretty.

( text )

Georgia is so lame. i want to go home. no-one will hang out with me here.. they are all too busy, or no-one is ever online..or they have some stupid excuse. jkfhkasdjlf i mean i came here so people would want to see me. i really want to hang out with rene[sex] right now.. i miss her. UGHHHHHHHHHHH

i cannot believe things are going back to how they used to be.
i thought things were getting better.

klasjdf.
don't let me do this.
take this _____ to my _____.
but it feels so good.